Has anyone dumped the crazy life for the simple on?



Ok, after loosing my husband to cancer in 05, I lost all interest in my fancy, high powered, health care job. I had it for 21 years and they almost had to fire me, I was so burnt out and grief-stricken.

Fortunately, I had purchased a small house in rural North Carolina in a small, poor town prior to my husband's death. I decided to sell my beautiful home in Drexel Hill, PA and was very, very fortunate to sell it in under 30 days. My partner, John, and I arrived in NC on June 29. The house was a terrible mess - no toilet for 4 days, not occupied for 5 years, all kinds of insects, dirt dirt and more dirt. So we have been working on the house since then and it's pretty comfortable now but needs years of work. The one acre has beautiful old trees but has been neglected for many years.

i quit my job in February and haven't been working at all. I find myself kind of floating through life and developing new bad habits and indulging excessively in old ones. On a good day, I get to bed early and get up early enough to walk the dogs and get 5-10 hours of pure house renovation work. On a bad day, I stay up til 3am drinking beer and couch potatoing. The next day, I get up so late, it's noon before I know it and I have no motivation. It's so challenging to remodel a home - we've taken some rooms down to almost the studs. It's frustrating and so much needs to be done. I feel either totally unmotivated or totally into the tasks.

The cost of living is significantly less down here but I can't not work forever. My COBRA benefits run out next September. By then I have to be working in a full time job with health care.

The stress level is minimal - my blood pressure is back to normal first time in 5 years. Still, I can be a total slacker and that bothers me.

So, maybe there are others like me. It would be nice to be held accountable for something.

 

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